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23rd February
Since the morning I was planning to meet up with the fireman. Usually cannot resist meeting up with him. The sexual chemistry between us is amazing. Apparently I have the strongest muscles down there compared to anyone else he has met. We had great time… starting with wine and pizza, and watching Sin City. Considering I was still suffering from hypomania, I made him laugh by making silly sound effects to Sin City. ๐ I am special. ย Ended up getting lots of sex in evening and morning.
The fireman usually ends up juggling around girls… one of them called Amy, she was very pretty. He couldn’t really click with her as she seemed to be lying about stuff all the time, for example saying her mum died 1 half years , or another time saying 3 years ago, or something. He basically said it didn’t fit right. Also, said pretty girls are usually moody and whiney anyway. He can’t get on with really attractive girls. I am glad I am not one of them.
Other than the sex and gossiping, I managed to survive the train journey to and from Brighton, without having a panic attack. Yay!
25th February
Ian and I, the one I met from a bdsm site.. had plans to meet this night. I was very nervous about meeting. I sat in his car when he picked me up, and I sat there thinking, “Shit what am I thinking?”. Ended up getting to the flat, and was soon enough naked on the bed. I can’t really remember how the events unfolded, but I think I ended up sucking his cock, then he ended up tying me to the bed. He ended up doing anal play and fucking me as well. We wound down, then went to Nando’s ๐ Gotta love chicken.. especially the spicey rice! I was then getting tipsy as, too much wine for someone on too much medication for Bipolar. Fuck you bipolar. At least I am cheap when I go out, but the night would end too shortly I think.
We got back to the flat, and we watched The Knowing. I didn’t really see anything of it, as I was pretty much sleeping on Ian’s shoulder from the alcohol increasing the medication effects. We ended up having sex again after watching the film, don’t really know how he managed to fuck me if I was half asleep it happens. Ended up falling asleep straight after. I woke up to him saying I was a heavy breathing during my sleep.. !