Sorry for not keeping up to date. I have been far too busy suffering from hypomania, mind you still am!
It was ‘appointment day’ on the 18th of February. I had to see my consultant psychiatrist and my care coordinator in the morning, I was a bit nervous seeing them as previous Thursday I ended up crying down the phone to my care coordinator, saying I couldn’t cope with my hypomania. Feeling guilty about spending money, and just generally being so productive that my body was so exhausted by everything. I seemed to have been coming down according to the psychiatrist… so they didn’t change my medication, and left it as it is.
I saw care coordinator just after, pretty much talked about meeting strangers and how to keep myself safe in case something happens. I told him I didn’t really care if anything happened to me. I guess this is what you call a “risky behaviour” when under hypomania. You feel like you are invincible or unstoppable. He told me to keep myself busy to get rid of excess energy.. not really sure how that works, as being more productive is a sign of hypomania… wouldn’t that just fuel my hypomania?
Anyway, I got my prescription and went to Boots to collect the medication. I managed to go on a spending spree, did feel guilty afterwards. Whilst I was in Miss Selfridge, they asked if I wanted a loyalty card, didn’t realise it would ask for a credit check. I was practically shitting myself, as I just lied to most of it. I did get declined thankfully, but about 10 minutes later I got accepted.. as they left a voicemail on my phone. Now I have miss selfridge loyalty card…..hmmm not really sure what to do with that. I haven’t really told care co ordinator either.
In the afternoon I had to go see Nurse as I needed more contraception pills. The surgery had moved so I was shitting it again, as I didn’t want to look like a total loser not knowing what to do. I managed to cope though, probably because of my hypomania. I thought the nurse was a prescribing nurse, which she wasn’t , so had to wait around like a looney waiting for the doctor to sign it.
Pretty boring day really!